Unexplainable Infatuation

Ok so I think I need a therapist right now. I am pretty sure that everyone has heard all the rumors going on surrounding Janet... Ms. Jackson if your nasty...in regards to this alleged secret daughter she has. I have to admit when I seen the picture of the girl she definitely looks like Janet. She is pretty. Well that made me start thinking about things. I have always liked Janet Jackson. I remember being young and listening to her album "Control" all the time...like over and over again. As I got older I remained a fan of hers. But listening to her music and watching her perform or seeing her in videos always stirred up a curiosity in me. I have never imagined "what if's" about another woman that is...if you know what I mean. I don't consider myself bi - bi-curious or anything of that nature. I have never been attracted to another woman let alone explore anything on that level. I have always and will remain strictly dickly. But with Janet it is wierd. Since I have never been in that type of situation I wouldn't know what to do. But I always imagine myself being very submissive to her. Letting her do anything she wants to me and teaching me so much. I mean I have actually dreamed this. It is so wierd, I honestly think something is wrong. I told my friend about this and she called me crazy. Not like I haven't been told that before. I hate the fact that when I see her or hear her I think of her in a sensual way; like she is some sort of male hearthrob. I don't know. I know that I will never get the chance to even see if I would actually explore the notion of being with her being that I will never find myself in that type of situation with her. Oh well I guess she will always be my secret fantasy. Mr. Man thinks I am crazy also. I told him about it. I guess he doesn't care since it isn't like I am telling him that I am infatuated with the boy next door or something like that. There isn't any competition there with a female celebrity. And he's a man so if anything he would love for that too happen. Me, Her, and Him. Isn't that like the average man's number one fantasy...to have his cake and ice cream and cookies. Well if I ever meet her and my fantasy has been made reality I will definitely let you know...